brokenness aside

All Sons and Daughters

Will your grace run out
If I let you down
‘Cause all I know
Is how to run

‘Cause I am a sinner
If its not one thing its another
Caught up in words
Tangled in lies
You are the Savior
And you take brokenness aside
And make it beautiful
Beautiful

Will you call me child
When I tell you lies
Cause all I know
Is how to cry

I am a sinner
If its not one thing its another
Caught up in words
Tangled in lies
You are the Savior
And you take brokenness aside
And make it beautiful
Beautiful

(disclaimer: You as a reader are about to learn something about me I didn't even know myself.)

Last night, in the middle of prayer in worship, all I knew was how to run. All I knew was how to cry. In a beautiful moment, I was selfish. Yes, part of it was because I knew there were problems in my heart that needed to be addressed before I could effectively pray for someone else. But, this is not uncommon for me. When I feel uncomfortable, I run. I avoid people. "I am a sinner, if it's not one thing, it's another..." This could not be more true about me. Sure, I may not partake in the "typical sins." But, my fear, my anxiety, my attitude? All of these things stem from certain sins. When I learn things and try to figure out how to apply them to my life, I get frustrated. Right now, frustration is my biggest weakness. I had so much time this weekend to sit and listen to the Lord, but then I didn't have much time to reflect and process what I heard. So, what did I do? I got frustrated? I ran away from the people I loved.

I wish I didn't do this.