give me Jesus.

Take the world, but give me Jesus,
All its joys are but a name;
But His love abideth ever,
Through eternal years the same

Take the world, but give me Jesus,
Sweetest comfort of my soul;
With my Savior watching over me,
I can sing though billows roll

Take the world, but give me Jesus,
Let me view His constant smile;
Then throughout this life's long journey
He will lead me all the while

Take the world, but give me Jesus.
In His cross my trust shall be,
Till, with clearer, brighter vision,
Face to face my Lord I see!

So take the world, but give me Jesus
Take the world, but give me Jesus
Take the world, but give me Jesus
Take the world, but give me Jesus

Oh, the height and depth of mercy!
Oh, the length and breadth of love!
Oh, the fullness of redemption,
Pledge of endless life above!

-Ascend the Hill

this IS the cry of my heart. but, why do i not act on it? sure, i want all the Lord has for me. but i suffer from something that most people do... complacency. laziness. apathy. it is SO SO easy for me to just sit by and let opportunities pass me by. and often times i catch myself being okay with it. i don't want to be okay with complacency! excuses are so easily formed.

here i am. i am 18 years old. i am a freshman in college. i am studying journalism. i am in a sorority. i have multiple opportunities every week to share the gospel. how many times have i actually done it? zero. in my mind, i am not the right person. someone else would be better. i'm scared. i guess the hope in writing this is that in voicing my fears, i will somehow be able to face them. or, at least understand them a little better? i'm on a journey. sometimes i feel like i have come miles. other times, i am a snail. and that's okay. but, sometimes i get frustrated.

frustration is, without a doubt, my biggest weakness. i get frustrated when people don't feel the same way i do. i get frustrated when i can't find words. i get frustrated with myself, mostly.

i am learning. learning how to cope. learning how to understand.

it's just taking some time, i guess.

so here i end, once again, with this:

you can have all this world, but PLEASE, just give me Jesus.